Macam Haram

Macam Haram.
Rasa sayang makin Kepam
Dulu jatuh hati
sekarang jatuh Tersembam
Hati tak berbunga, hanya Lebam-Lebam
Angan-angan jadi Hitam.
Legam.

Macam Haram.
Rasa kasih makin Kurang.
Yang bertambah hanya Geram
Manis gula terasa Masin garam
Sakit dan Geram
Sakit dan Geram.

Jangan dicabar-cabarnya aku
Jangan di tipu-tipunya aku
Aku bukan patung Terkaku
Cabar itu memang makan Aku
Maaf,tipu itu belum Mahirnya aku.

Aku ini sifatnya cepat Tersuka
Si cepat Terpercaya
Segala benda Kau bicara
Angan Tetap aku Pegang.

Percaya dan Ditipu
Tersuka dan Dicabar
Ironik

Macam Haram.

Numb

Sekerap mana kau kata kau cinta
Sekuat mana kau kata kau setia
Kenapa aku masih tak rasa?

Cinta,setia yang kau kata
Adakah sandaran cuma?
Atau aku yang mengejar sempurna
Tanpa terima seada-ada.




Maaf.

milik siapa

kalau dari dulu aku
tak kau mahu
maka di beritahu.


kalau dari dulu aku
tak kau perlu
maka juga di beritahu.


memang aku ini
tak punya apa sebenarnya
tiada apa
dan bukan siapa siapa.


kadang kadang
termanggu, terkeliru
entah dari rusuk kiri siapa
aku dijadikan
milik kau kah?
milik kau?


tapi kenapa aku rasa tak kena
bila kau kata rusuk kiri ini kau yang punya
janggal rasanya
kan?


kerna aku masih rasa
tak di mahu.
ak diperlu.
pathetic.

sleepy

Bila mata dah berat,
ilmu yang di ajar
lansung tak lekat,
tumpuan hilang,
terbang melayang,
tersengguk sengguk,
macam burung belatuk,
harapnya,
masa cepat berjalan,
dan aku
terus bertahan dan menahan,
dengan semua godaan setan,
yang hampir
bersorak kemenangan.

*burung belatuk tersengguk sengguk ke eh?*
cik DR

Yesterday was very unpredictable. Very unexpected (in a good way for sure) As usual, its a Saturday class, with the sweet-looking-psychiatrist. And I was very sure that im gonna cry again. *i totally dont know why im becoming too fragile recently.damn* It was the session where we supposed to give feedback for every single person in class. Both positive and negative side.

Only God know how hard I try for not crying again in this class. But then, the gloomy mood was overwhelm. Fcuk. Hahaha. And there I am, crying-cum-smilling. It is not the sad cry. Its kinda happy-touched-cry afterall.

Okay, lets not reveal too much on the crying part.

The feedback from others toward me? Jeng jeng jeng.

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the KL girl with no sense of KLgirl itself.
*you know how people have this kind of perception toward KLgirl. selfish,arrogant,annoying,perasan bagus etc. Okay, frankly speaking, I really dont know why people had this perception on KLgirl. And luckily, the classmates told that I AM TOTALLY DIFFERENT. ahaha*

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the soft-hearted girl.
-Oh mai God! It was really shock when they mentioned this. I was like..??? Ahahaha.*blushingggg*;p

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Meanwhile, only this bunch of people said the soft-hearted thinggy. And I am totally !@#$$%^?
Ahaha.

Miss Jay